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It was 2 years ago that my first sicknote ever was issued: Monday 21^st February 2005.

I was recently informed that one of the greatest teachers Imam Al Haddad had a fever for 14 years which nobody was aware of.

I know a lot of you have been in touch and I do ask to be forgiven for not being able to reply to your emails in the spirit that I would want to. I have been busy with additional tasks which has meant that I am more tired these days. I know I must continue to do these additional tasks for my spiritual, social and physical wellbeing. However, they have meant that I am only able to commit to one big ‘activity’ per day in order that I am refreshed for the next. Napping regularly and ensuring there are a few days in the week when I don’t do much are helping me ensure I have sufficient energy for the varying tasks.

Living on a budget with energy means that some days I have more energy than other days. I know that today I may do 4 tasks but that tomorrow there is no guarantee of getting beyond task 1. I am slowly beginning to live for each day. I have realised that there is nobody to complain to except Him who created the situation we find ourselves in, in the first place.

It is slowly bringing me right down to my knees – and I hear that that is the best place to be. Perhaps the work I started on the concept of Submission almost 16 months ago is finally beginning to reveal itself to me? Perhaps it is true: that the reason why we wish to believe in the ‘Magic Wand Theory’ is because we have an incorrect or incomplete understanding of Submission. Here is the last entry I made in my private journal about this:

6^th February 2007

Magic Wand doesn’t exist.

The inexistence of it means that Submission is the form in which our energies should be exerted to address the situations in which we require or think we require the Magic Wand i.e. use Submission as the Magic Wand but remember the magic is slow.. although it is effective.

As I said before I do intend to do an Update. Some thoughts on the Chalice:

Be like the Chalice,

For all to take,

Their share from you –

For you too will take from them.

I love you all for the sake of the Creator and for our common Father Adam Alaislam and hold you all dear to me in thoughts and prayer.

Peace & Prayers

Bint-eh Adam x x x