Sunday, July 10, 2005


Health Update :o)

Salam, Peace to all, and to all be peace :o)

Alot of people have enquired about my health so here goes...

After the weeks of waiting I finally managed to see the consultant; though tell a lie it wasn’t the consultant but his psychic that I actually saw.

He wiggled my fingers about and flopped my hands about to check where the pain was. I must admit he was one of the most down-to-earth and human consultants my being had ever been placed in front of. I think he will do well. I hope he does well. Being spoken to as if you are not an ant – wow! No medical jargon, plain-simple English what a girl like me likes – no cryptic crap which makes one question what possessed them to go into the clinic in the first place! I have in the past met consultants who really made me feel like a scum of the earth – like it’s my fault I’m ill yeah?!

So the conclusion was to start the process of elimination… beginning with Rheumatoid Arthritis for which I was introduced with the Count. It took two vampires to find my tiny veins, which I feel were still asleep. Finally the Count herself came with the syringe as we all waited for the morning birds to sing the vessels into wakefulness. And then it was drawn.. bottles and bottles of burgundy fluid from my arm.

A tip I was given later by a friend was to make sure I soaked my arms in hot water to get the veins popping up. I told her that my future protocol would be to carry a hot water bottle with me owing to her kind suggestion :o)

Now I await an appointment with the Neurophysiologists who will kindly electrode me for a nerve test. Makes me feel a little like the fella from Quantum Leap, in fact sad to say that’s exactly what passed before my eyes when I was told about it! This is to ensure I don’t have trapped nerves and to eliminate the possibility of Carpal Tunnel Syndrome (which is so common because I keep bumping into people with it).

So more prodding and probing in an attempt to find a diagnosis. I feel an extension on my sicknote is coming this way as I start my 21st week off-sick tomorrow! Until an overall diagnosis is not established I remain in limboland!

These last few months really have turned my world round. I have been made to analyse the many spheres of my life as I try to discover what my relationship is with myself, my family, friends, jobs, art project, the community and most important of all My Creator.

Where am I heading? What is life? What is the meaning of these events? Why is this happening? Have I done something wrong? Will there be an end? Will I cope through this? What is important to me? Who are my real well-wishers? What are my life priorities? Am I growing weak? Do I show signs of one without faith? Why do I feel uncertain about my being? Where are my strengths? What is happening to my world? Was this ever my world if now I feel it isn’t?

These months have shown be Reality in a manner I had never envisaged and given me insights which force me not to bow to misery.

I remain confident that I shall find my silver lining in the dark cloud that appears to have temporarily gathered above this world I live in. As I was told by a great teacher earlier in my sickness: “A new world will be created for you.”

Prayers for all well-wishers & may the angels be with you all. Ameen.

Peace to all
Bint-eh Adam xx
Thanks to everyones emails.

Just to add:
1. I have actually been issued another 3 months sicknote due to start tomorrow. I have been told that I am free to obtain a 'fit-note' if I am 'fit' within this period.

2. Still await blood results.. should be contacting them fellas this week!

3. I did have the opportunity to meet a very Noble, Charasmatic teacher yesterday - who is also a descendent of the Prophet Muhammad SalalahuAlai Hi Wasalam (peace upon him). He made me hold his prayer beads with both hands and recited a prayer for healing. It almost made me cry.

Peace & Prayers
Bint-eh Adam xx
you're in my prayers
love and best wishes.

aah Thank you dear Umm Ilhaam :o)

I thought I'd Update here rather than do another post..

1. Today marks the end of my 23rd week Off-sick! I have had a lot of friends and well-wishers say to me they would do anything for a month off work! And I know they all say it to cheer me up & thank you folks. However, considering that in my whole career (about 6 years) I have only had about 5 actual sickdays you could imagine how it makes one feel to have a few months on the trot! But nonetheless folks I love you guys for trying to cheer me up a little :~)

2. I did telephone in regards my blood results, unfortunately I'm not allowed access to them until after the Nerve Tests! The appointment should come very soon and then we have a jolly of a time at the clinic when the consultant gives me feedback.

3. The warm stretch we had at the start of July did do my hands some good.. I am convinced now that my 'pain-threshold' has increased as I don't take pain-killers and have 'started activity' as I was told, in order to avoid muscle wastage. But the recent cold weather for the last 10 days or so has set my hands 'back' again!

4. I am able to do certain things with the hands, but not others. Lifting things upwards with the palm facing upwards is hard. Even a plate is very difficult with one hand. Most of my 'holding' is done with both hands. The period of time I am able to 'carry things' is very limited ie 10-20 metres. So I can carry a single plate with both hands to the kitchen; an activity lasting less than 30 seconds. But to continue holding that means :'(

Picking things with the 'claw' movement is easier with the palm faced downwards.

I am now able to use the Tasbih with beads to roll with the thumb, although it is another repetitive movement and not always as easy, when I rely on the fingers to count.

Well, all things said, I am receiving a lot of emails from people I don't know in regards my health and that has been very encouraging.

Thanks for everything folks and keep those emails rolling!

Peace & Prayers
Bint xx

Ooh and today I received the apointment (later this month) back at the hospital.. Amazing as my life is the consultants' surname is HAND lol

haaha life?


..well I think thats the name :-?
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